I have been away from here for a while. It was part of a detox process from over achieving to do lists, from the digital world and especially from social media. This constant feeling of being overdue, too much distraction, unthreaded reads, not enough focus on real life, nor on the actual writing. The mind clutter resulting from it was making me fidgety and anxious, like an addict always on the lookout for her next shot. I needed to clear up headspace to exist again.
Not surprisingly, concentrating on the essential and being further away from social media has made me happier and saner. I have not completely banned it from my life, but I have skimmed it down considerably. I would not go back — on the contrary, I would go even further in detoxing, to the extent work projects allow me.
For writing it has been slightly different though. I have not written as much since I have been away. Do I need reactions, validation, confirmation? Maybe. But mostly, it feels like what I write is not real unless I put it out there. Music needs to be heard — writing needs to be read. Or something like that. So here I am again.
