Running around in circles, trying to cover all bases, trying to fit in cases that are too small for me, that are too far from me, forcing it. Getting frustrated, discouraged, brooding over my faith, thinking I’ll never make it. Picking myself up and doing it all over again. This has been my daily bread since I left the corporate world, since I said “no thank you” to a monthly salary.
And then, every once in a while, something comes along — and it is easy, and it makes sense. Proceeding doesn’t hurt, nor does it feel forced. It feels natural, and I know it will unfold into something good. Maybe even something great. Invariably, this happens when I let go of expectations and just do. When I keep my focus on the bigger picture, on the ultimate goal. When I don’t mind the blows along the way, when I see the failures for what they are — lessons.
If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished? ~ Rumi
After the storm, after the fear, where I learn to let go, a faint light makes its way through. And the more I trust, the stronger it grows.
