I have been screening my calls lately. I don’t even know how it started. I just slowly lost interest in answering on the spot. It used to make me anxious though. I would ignore calls but stress would invariably start crawling up the back of my neck within minutes. I would feel the urge to drop what I was doing, check my messages, return the call — god forbid I would let anyone down.
This is the pivotal point though — does it really matter if I let people down? Because I certainly cannot live up to everyone’s expectations, and neither would I want to. Imagine what a crazy life that would be. Hold on… I don’t need to imagine, I was living that life — before. Before I dropped the ball because it was getting insane. I guess we do learn some lessons along the way.
Now I am starting to actually enjoy not answering calls. Every time feels like a little victory — over myself, over buggers. I certainly don’t stress about them anymore and I sometimes even forget to return them — imagine the headspace that has freed up! I think I am on to something…
All we have to see — Is that I don’t belong to you — And you don’t belong to me yeah yeah — Freedom! ~ George Michael
